Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Return to Divergence - The Effort-Filled Opportunity to Choose the Road Rather than the Road Choosing for Me

Post Number: 38
Review of Yesterday's Progress
     Daily Points Left: 22 of 71 (Goal: 15)
     Weekly Points Left: 49 of 49 (Goal: 49)
     Meetings Attended: None Scheduled
     Exercise Completed: YMCA Aquatics class

I went to the YMCA Aquatics class with MBWM. It was wonderful to not only have been doing something together just her and I, but it was also made more exceptional by the experience of working on our health together. I was better able to exercise this time having been last time. My joints don't hurt as much but I'm still worn out from the exertion. And my shins are particularly in pain. It took all of my strength at several points in the day to take care of basic responsibilities like taking my Mom shopping, organizing the parlor to be ready for possible future visits, and the list continues. Exhaustion plagued me throughout the day. This made shopping with my mother most difficult. But it had been two weeks since I assisted her. But the difficult consequences while with my Mom also included a mental fog that was hard to see through. But the Y is in proximity to my Mom's place. Normally, I have to convince my Mom not to buy as much as she is interested in purchasing. Today, I didn't, and she managed to purchase a little in excess. Which added to the stresses of the day.

I know all of this effort and strain, stress and pain is all for the better. I will become better at recovering from exercise. I will sleep better tonight and in the future. And there are other blessings in all of this. But the source of the mental, emotional, and spiritual boost still evades me. The uplifting feeling continues. And I am very grateful for it.

I am not feeling grateful for the pain, yet. I am really not interested in feeling the burn 9 hours after the class ended. I am hoping tomorrow's Yoga class will set me on an additional but synergistic path towards better health. I am especially looking at expanding my meditation experience. Maybe with the boost from meditation, I will be able to appreciate the pain as a measure of progress plus learn the source of these good feelings.

Yours in the potential of the road that is drawn out before me,


Return to the Divergence - Work in Progress
(with apologies to Robert Frost and for the intentional change in meter)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And be one traveler, long I stood
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the stump well sat upon
And that has made no difference

As from the stump I must be towed
To reach the place to pick the road
So rise I must, and rise I will
I must swallow the bitter pill
The one that means hard working ways
The one that says your changes stays
So wood or park or street to walk
Meetings as well, you'll see me stalk
The kitchen is my friend obtained
Life's recipes for joy regained
The kitchen, no longer friendless
All merged make health's rubric endless
Bolstered above by health's great joys
Greater life with wife, girls and boys

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